.:: selamat tinggal 2010, selamat datang 2011! ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

tinggal lagi kurang sejam je 2010 akan melabuhkan tirai..

so in less than 60 min, 2011 will come!

hehe, a new year, a new experience to seek..

owhh, i love adventures!

my speech for 2010 :

well klu nk sum up apa yg dh jd along 2010 ni mmg lenguh la jari ni nk menaip..

truly, lots of bigger things happened..

big and very affecting.

the biggest thing was ive turn 20.. (:

yg lain, malas nk ulas.. haha.. :p

ringkasnya,

 ada yang pergi, ada yang hadir..

some people come into our lives an quickly go..

some stay for a while and leave footprints on our heart..

and we are never, ever the same..

my speech for 2011 :

im welcoming u with my all heart!

semoga tahun baru aku akan menjadi lebih baik,

hidup yang lebih bermakna,

dan pengalaman yang lebih mematangkan..

semoga hidup lebih berwarna! (:

>>> c0loUrS <<<

 last but not least,

happy new year 2011!

.:: g - o - o - d - b - y - e ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

ehe, got something fun from my dear fren ain syafikah.. kikiki..nmpk ni trus ain eksited gile nk wat.. haha, maybe sbb dia pasal music kot, cuz i luv music so much! well, songs really express u, rite? well, lets shuffle the 595 songs from my dear w980i!

the rules :

1. Put your music library on shuffle. 
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 
3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough. 
4. Ok, go!
5. When you're done, tag at least 20 people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this. The answer to #20 is the Title of your note.

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?”

Just A Dream - Nelly 

.:: ehe, apakah yang hanya mimpi tu ehk? ain mmg selalu mimpi pun.. :p

2. How would you describe yourself? 

Something Bout Love - David Archuleta

.:: love?? ((:

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

Nothing On You - B.o.B ft Bruno Mars 

.:: serious? hahaha.. 

4. How do you feel today? 

Gozen 4 ji - Yamashita Kousuke

.:: a soundtrack from Hana Yori Dango.. soft, calm, serene.. i guess its how i feel today.. (:

5. What is your life’s purpose?

Walk Away - Kelly Clarkson

.:: oOps.. mcm xde tujuan.. xkn asyik nak pegi je kn?

6. What's your motto?

Next To You - Jordin Sparks 

.:: next to whom?

7. What do your friends think of you?

Dance With Me - Drew Seeley

.:: erk? haha.. 

8. What do you think of your parents?

Revolusi - Bunkface

.:: rocknye lagu utk mama & ayah.. tapi, actually its true., there's a change in the atmosphere now.. thank God.. (:

9. What do you think about very often?

Aeinmandeulgi - SS 501

.:: soundtrack BBF, nk tau x maksud dia apa? Making A Lover.. -.-

10. What is 2 + 2?

Never Again - Kelly Clarkson

.:: hihi, mcm cik ain syafikah, sy x fhm dgn soklan nih..

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

Resistance - Muse 

.:: intro yg superb!^^

12. What do you think of the person you like?

Clocks - Coldplay

.:: ehem, maybe ttg masa kot.. jam = masa, of course..

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Metamorphosis - Hilary Duff 

.:: hope nanti cantik macam rama-rama..haha!

17. What will they play at your funeral?

Love So Sweet - Arashi

.:: love + pray i hope.. (:

18. What is your biggest fear?

It's True - BSB

.:: hurm, maybe.. kadang-kadang saya lari kenyataan.

19. What is your biggest secret?

The Outside - Taylor Swift

.:: ada apa kat luar??

20. What will you post this as?

Goodbye - Secondhand Serenade

.:: haha! tajuk yang shocking.. to certain person.. yes, you.. :p

hehe.. funny.. truly funny! lagu yang 5 bln x dgr pn ada.. haha.. hurm, harap jugak la kan lagu Safest Place To Hide-Bsb, Gravity-Coldplay n others from my top list.. (:

.:: White Rose, My Star, a Bless ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

White roses represent innocence and purity and are traditionally associated with  new beginnings. The white rose is also a symbol of honor and reverence, and white rose arrangements are often used as an expression of remembrance. Representing, humility, purity and innocence, the white rose - often referred to as the bridal rose - is associated with young love. Also symbolizing truth and reverence, it sends a message of loyalty and says "I am worthy of you."

mesmerizing..

yeah, someone put a charm on me.

i lost my word..

azriatul farahain yg selalu byk sgt bnda nk ckp ni dah x reti put words into sentence..

and that is CODE BLUE!

why code blue?

because, it is a medical term used to indicate a patient is requiring immediate resuscitation..

haha, my heart stop beating last night..

terkejut sangat..

 

it touches my heart and i feel like crying..

muhammad aslam

betullah,

kamu memang adalah satu rahmat.. (:

.:: Hidup Berdasarkan Pilihan ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

"the longer i live, the more i realize the impact of attitude on life. attitude, to me, is more important than facts. it is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successec, than what other peple think or say or do. it is more importance than appearance, giftedness or skill.it will break a company.. a ____..a home. the remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. we cannot change our past.. we cannot change that people will act in a certain way. we cannot change the inevitable. the only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. i am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how i react to it. and so it is with you.. we are in charge of our Attitudes." ~ Charles R. Swindoll

yes, hidup berdasarkan pilihan.. 

n pilihan2 kita tu yang menjadikan kita adalah kita hari ini. 

pilihan tu x semestinya nak kena pilih baju apa yg kita nk pakai hari ni, atau mlm nanti nk makan ap or watsover.. haha, hidup ni lebih dari sekadar pilihan baju dan makan.

attitude..

when anything happen to us, we choose how to react wif it. bukan orang lain, tapi kita. pernah x terlintas dalam hati, 

"kalau la aku x buat mcm ni dulu, mesti takkan jadi mcm ni."

"kalau aku pilih ni dulu, mesti hidup aku lebih baik."

hehe, well manusia.. kadang2 ayat2 tu selalu terlintas dalam hati ni.. tapi sebenarnya, perkataan 'kalau' tu adalah jalan masuk untuk syaitan. nauzubillah.. ya sebab kata2 tu akan buat kita tak redha terhadap apa juga yang dah jadi dalam hidup kita.

pernah tak tengok cite 13 going 30? hehe, ada satu part tu yg paling aku igt.. time tu jennifer garner dh jadi 30 n hidup dia dh jd serabut masa tu, n ad ms tu dia tanya mak dia, "mom, do you have any regrets in your life?" (lbh kurang mcm tu la..) n masa tu mak dia terdiam,n berfikir panjang.. n then dia jwb, tak ada. yes mmg kadang2 dia rasa mcm dia buat pilihan yang salah. tapi bila dia fikir2 balik, dia rasa content dgn pilihan2 tu sbb dgn pilihan2 tu la hidup dia macam skrg.. (mcm tu la kot, ad la sket lain bunyi dia maybe,x igt,dh lama tgk cite tu.)

pilihan aku?

MY PAST
haha, kalau masa tu la, kisah2 silam tu mmg menyakitkan. tapi sekarang, when i think of them, it makes me smile. walaupun masa2 dulu fikiran memang x matang dalam membuat pilihan, tapi pilihan2 tu la yang guide diri aku utk pilih which road must i take.

to hikma hashiqin : if u read this, i really miss u so much.

MY PRESENT

hurm, kdg2 apa yang dh jadi ms dulu mmg akan memberi efek pada pilihan2 yang aku pilih sekarang. maaf kalau kdg2 im seem selfish. its not it, just hati2.. cuma sekarang, bila tiba masa utk buat pilihan, jujurnya aku banyak dengar kata hati. sebab lintasan hati tu kdg2 ilham dari DIA. tapi kata hati tu dibatasi dgn fikiran yang waras. itu sudah pasti.

MY FUTURE

hidup ini adalah teka-teki. sometimes it becomes a surprise, but sometimes it is expected cuma the way dia dtg tu yang kdg2 kita x expect. well, im just follow the flow! (:

we do have regrets.. its not regrets actually, but we just wondering what would happen if we chose the road not taken.

moral of the story : bijaklah ketika membuat pilihan.

.:: Music, My Life! ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

suka tak tengok movie?
macam cite horror yg suspens bole wat berenti degup jantung,
or cite tembak2 yg sound efek kasi gegar gegendang telinga,
atau cite hantu yang siyes bole gugur bulu roma sbb terlebih meremang (haha..),
or cite romantik yang mmg kasi hanyut like a sea bass,
hurm, or cite komedi yang lawak giler tuh?
haha,or cite sedih yang memang kasi bengkak mata..
tak kisah la kat wayang ke, kat depan laptop ke tv ke..

ehem,perasan x ada lagu background kat every plot yang jd dlm satu2 cite tu?
perasan x? (klu x mmg anda btul2 memberi perhatian terhadap skrip. :p)

well, ive asked my friends lots of times,
tentang, kalaulah tiap2 plot yang berlaku dalam hidup kita ada lagu dia mesti best kan??
like setiap episod yang terjadi tu ada lagu latar belakang dia..
kalaulah ada, seronoknya!^^

boleh bayang x apa akan jadi kalau ada lagu bckground dia tuh?
kalau tgh takut mesti jadi lagi takut kan?
kalau tgh suspens mesti mcm menggila je jantung tu..
kalau tgh sedih mesti berjurai-jurai la air mata tu!
kalau tgh happy mesti berganda-ganda happy tu.. mcm ada rasa nk melompat pun ada!
hahaha.. (ain terlebih berangan ni..) <--- hidup mesti kreatif! :p

tapi seriously,
utk hidup ni bersama lagu background tu adalah salah satu my wish.
and just this night, ive got it.

happy moment with special person with not just one but two background songs!!

oh my... ((:

haha, klaka, tengah2 jalan dalam kesibukan Sun Plaza ( center place for medan people :p) tu dengan semangat yang berkobar-kobar menuju ke Sour Sally, tiba-tiba..
"wait a minute, bunyi macam kenal je??" siyes langkah terhenti n jantung macam pause kejap.
Coldplay! ada band main lagu ' In My Place ' kt tgh2 sun tu!
whoa.. sedap gile dowg main.. huhuhu.. kalau la x begitu mengejar masa time tu, mmg dah terpacak la ain kat depan band tu..haha~
adeh.. memang snyum tu dah terlebih dari pipi la ain..haha..
then dah lepas ngidam Sour Sally dgr plak lagu Coldplay-Yellow..
adehh.. saje je bagi tinggi lagi meter happy tu... ngee~

entahlah, susah nak describe perasaan tu exactly camana..
tapi tu la, In My Place is one of my favourite song, the melody it is..huhu..
jadi aku pun terperasan la tu lagu background sendiri masa tu.. ( padahal beratus lg org dgr lagu tu time tu..)
hahaha, bia la.. :p
at least, angan2 untuk ada lagu background tu dah tercapai..ehe~

well,

thanks GOD for granted my wish.. (:

.:: Saya Yang Kamu Tak Kenal ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

mereka cakap saya EGO..

mereka cakap saya DEGIL..

mereka cakap hati saya KERAS..

tapi, betul ke apa yang mereka cakap tu?

dari sudut mereka, mungkin nampak betul..

dari fikiran orang luar, mungkin saya kelihatan macam tu..

dari mereka yang tak kenal saya, itulah saya..

tapi bukan..

mereka salah sama sekali..

sebenarnya, hati saya RAPUH..

yang bila sedikit terhiris, lukanya lambat pulih..

kamu cakap sikit pun cukuplah. terguris hati saya. kalau kamu memang purposely sakitkan saya, hai, lagi besar la luka saya tu.

lagi2 kalau kamu tu orang yang saya syg, yg saya dah terima kamu tu sebagai sebahagian dari hidup saya.. kalau kamu tu orang yang saya letak di tempat yang tinggi, lagilah lambat saya nak pulih, tau?

hey, kamu. bukan senang saya nak jadikan kamu part of my life saya. kamulah orang-orang yang saya anggap sebagai watak-watak dalam dunia saya. orang yang di luar dunia saya, terus-terang saya ckp, saya tak sedar pun kehadiran mereka tu. walaupun mereka tu berjalan satu inci dari saya.

tapi sayang, kamu tak faham..

kamu tahu tak, saya yang kamu cakap EGO tu adalah masa HEALING saya.

walaupun kamu dah cakap kamu sorry, tapi saya akan still senyap je kan? saya akan elakkan diri dari kamu. kalau boleh saya akan tutup dunia saya dari semua orang. bukan saya ego, taknak mulakan sesuatu conversation tu, cuma saya tak tahu nak buat muka camana dengan org yg dh lukakan saya. saya dah maafkan kamu cuma saya lambat sikit. jadi semasa masa isolation saya tu, sebenarnya masa tu saya tengah pulihkan diri saya dengan cuba telan apa yang dah berlaku and make myself ready to face you as normal as before.seolah-olah nothing happened.. when im start talking again, that's mean i'm fine..

tapi sayang, kamu tak faham..

yang kamu cakap saya DEGIL tu, bukanlah.. kamu salah.

sebenarnya saya SERIK.

serik sebab bila saya buat salah tu, kamu hukum saya dgn berat! yang saya rasa tak adil kamu buat saya macam tu.. kamu nk tau sbb apa? sbb saya takkan buat kamu mcm tu, jadi bila kamu buat pada saya mcm tu, saya jadi sedih sangat. sedih tak terkata, sampai saya rasa sakit je waktu tu. depends la, kadang2 saya serik lakukan kesalahan tu walaupun saya tak sengaja masa tu (trust me,sumpah sy x buat dah!),n kadang2 saya terus jauhkan diri dari kamu. tergantunglah kamu orang yang macamana, kalau baik semula dengan kamu mengundang risiko disakitkan semula, memang saya jauhlah awk.. sy bukan degil, lagi sekali saya cakap, saya serik. serik dengan kamu.

tapi sayang, kamu tak faham..

itulah..

hidup ni kena saling give and take..

apa yang saya bagi pada kamu, saya tak harap kamu akan bagi sama banyak.

sikit pun cukuplah..

janji saya tak rasa apa yang kamu bagi tu tak berbaloi sehingga saya merasakan apa yang saya bagi tu tak dihargai dan sia-sia..

tapi ada je kamu2 yang bagi lebih lagi dari yang saya bargain.. (:

but still yes..

kamu tak pernah faham..

it's true, takkan la saya expect semua orang dalam dunia ni kena faham saya kn?

tapi cukuplah dengan faham satu prinsip,

a give and take yang adil..

tak perlu sama banyak, cukuplah dengan kamu (: dan saya (:

*KAMU di sini bermaksud general tidak spesifik kepada satu-satu pihak. asalkan anda berada dalam dunia azriatul farahain, anda layak bergelar 'kamu' tersebut. ianya insan-insan yang pernah datang dan pergi dalam hidup saya selama 20 tahun saya hidup di dunia ni. they're the people who come and go, but thanks GOD cuz most of them stay..... (:

unfortunately, once they hurt me, i will never be the same.

.:: the unexpected things ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

a friend had told me once,
"sometimes things come the way you least expected.."
yes, i do agree with that..
tapi pernah x kita sedar? yang benda kita x sgka2 tu, menyebabkn kte realize more few things yg kita x sangka2? hahaha.. ain cakap belit2!
ok xpe, kita kupas satu2.. (:

semalam, malam, seseorang dari masa silam telefon..
more info ttg dia :
1) sy pernah syg dia..
2) tapi dia hancurkan hati sy..
3) dan sy bukan sy yg dulu..
so, of course, dah tentulah, mmg ssh la nk lupa ap yg dh jadi..
sbb hati tu dh btul2 hancur,phm x, hancur?
actually, mmg aku expect dia akn dtg minta maaf..
tp bukan dalam masa tempoh pemulihan aku..
bajet2 dlm setahun dua lagi ke..
sebab mmg setahun dua lagi tu la yg ak gariskn diri ak utk pulih..

so,
this is the unexpected thing..

jadi, benda kat atas ni menyebabkn beberapa unexpected things to occur..

ok, first thing, aku rasa yg aku b'dendam dgn dia ni..
yg dia la the last person on earth yg aku nk jumpa..
tapi, bila dia kol tu,
aku pelik camane ayat2 yg keluar dari mulut ni, ok je..
i mean, xde tinggi lgsg pitching dia..
bahasa yg aku guna, still sopan lagi, xde nk menyumpah ke ap kn..
ok la, still ad bunyi perempuan melayu yg ckp..
pendek kata, aku dah x marah dia lah~

ok, second thing..
lepas dia kol tu..yup!sebaik sahaja perbualan tu tamat..
kalau dr segi fizikal, ak agak menggigil kot!
shock mcm org x cukup darah tu.. haha~
kalau dari segi mental, hurmmm..
agak kabur aku rasa.. macam blur..
tp yg penting yg kat dalam tu..
a'ah yg tu, yg nm dia HATI tu..
kalau dulu, for sure sakit sangat.. pedih..
memang rs cm kne torn apart!
tapi kn, yg aku rs masa tu,
NOTHING..
sikit pun x tersentuh..
nak kate mcm ad angin lalu pun, ishhh.. mmg xde lah!
rs mcm dia (hati) tu dh ad kat tempat yg selamat.. (:

then, bila dh jd mcm tu, yup..
sy sgt2 la pelik dgn diri sendiri...
i mean, 'ko bia btul x rs pape ain?!'
esh..riso gak,kot2 xde hati ke..hati mati ke kn?
so the third thing is..
sy dah PULIH..
alhamdulillah...
yes i noe sumday i will heal.. tp x sangka dlm ms t'dekat ni,
dlm ms 5 bln ni..
yela, aku expect setahun dua..
klaka! balik2 ulang ayat tu kn ain??

huhu,
saya rasa nk jerit kat sume org,
"ain dah pulih!"
hahahaha..
im just glad u know?

terima kasih kepada kawan-kawan saya di malaysia..
terima kasih kepada kawan-kawan saya di medan..
terima kasih kepada dia yang betul2 pulihkan saya..
terima kasih juga kepada azriatul farahain yang percaya kepada dirinya.. (ya, kamu kuat ain!)
dan paling penting, terima kasih Tuhan.. (: sang Pencipta yang sangat menyayangi diri ini dengan memberi peluang kepada saya merasai turun naiknya hidup..
thank you, ALLAH.. <3


im healed. (:

.:: bunga ros kaler biru ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most beneficent

cerita tentang bunga ros ni bermula masa form 2..
ingat lagi, masa tu hari minggu kat dorm A1-6..
tengah lepak2 dgn kak Amy, santai2 masa tu..
hari minggu kot!hahaha..

k. Amy : ain2, tawu x ad bunga ros kaler biru?

ain        : eh?ad ke??

k. Amy : a'ah ad..akak baru jumpe artikel ni..baca la!hehe..

ain        : meh2..

(hurm, artikel tu x brape nk igt butir2 dia..7 tahun da kot!)

ain : a'ah la..iiiii..bestnye!nak.....!

k. Amy : tu la ain..akak nk sgt dpt bunga ni..warna biru plak tu..cantiknye...

ain : adui..kalau ad mesti mahal kan??haish..

k. Amy : yela..hish,kalau la ada sesape bagi akak bunga ros biru ni,akak kawin dgn dia ain..btul...

ain : hahahaha..

well, ayat terakhir k.Amy sedikit-sebyk memberi efek kat diri ni.. dlm diam2, aku menanam azam yang sama..
ya, kalau ada siapa2 yang bagi aku ros biru, aku akan kawin dgn dia..
rasanya ada la dlm brape thn simpan azam mcm tu..
aduhai ain..anda sangat childish di kala itu..
tapi sekarang, saya yang 20 ni dah pandai berfikir logik..
kalaulah perkahwinan semudah memberi ros biru..haha~

okay, ni ada 1 artikel pasal bunga ros biru tu.. maybe lebih kurang sama je dgn artikel kak Amy tu..

February 05, 2008

The World's First Blue Rose...

A truly blue rose has been the ultimate aspirations of rose breeders since 1840, when the horticultural societies of Britain and Belgium offered a prize of 500,000 francs to the first person to produce a genuinely blue rose. The feat wasn’t easy, but the company that created them is hoping it will be worth it.

It took 14 years of study with Japanese and Australian researchers to create the world’s first blue rose. Sometimes, it seems, Mother Nature just doesn’t want to budge. It was finally accomplished by implanting the gene that leads to the synthesis of the blue pigment Delphinidin in pansies. This pigment does not exist naturally in roses. The rose is the first in the world with the genetic potential to produce 'true blue' roses, spanning the spectrum from baby blue to navy.

The Suntory rose is also historic for another reason. It is potentially the first commercial plant in the world to exploit RNA interference (RNAi) technology. RNAi technology is used for research and development across the biological and medical sciences. The Japanese company that created the genetically modified blue roses, will start selling them commercially next year. Suntory Ltd, also a major whisky distiller, hopes to sell several hundred thousand blue roses a year, company spokesman Kazumasa Nishizaki said.

"As its price may be a bit high, we are targeting demand for luxurious cut flowers, such as for gifts,'' he said.

The exact price and commercial name for the blue rose, which was first created in 2004, have still not been decided. The company is now growing the rose experimentally in Australia and the United States to get approval for sales.

If all goes well, next year’s Valentine lovers will have a new, rarer, option for those who feel red is getting a little predictable.

Posted by Rebecca Sato.

huhu~
yang dikesalkan..
para saintis tu x dpt nk padan genetik yang lebih biru..
macam yang ini,

wahh..
so adorable..
tapi, color ros yang dorang berjaya cipta tu lebih kepada lilac..
agak kecewa di situ.. ):
tapi xpe lah,
tetap santek!

oh ya,
ive got something wif blue roses..
my baju kurung dengan tanah kelabu + bunga ros biru.. (:

.:: Negative Energi ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

hurm,
hari ini aura di sekeliling saya berunsur negatif.
bukan hari ni je, tapi sejak seminggu lalu lagi..
sebab?
huhu,hari isnin bakal menjelma dengan hadiah buah tangan yang sangat bagus!
macam ada sambutan meriah dengan karpet merah lagi.
seakan-akan ada suara menyambut,
"selamat hari isnin ain!"

persoalannya,

sudahkah saya bersedia dengan hari itu?


ahh, dengan persiapan yang tak seberapa.
ternyata 7 hari x 24 jam yang Sang Pencipta sediakan itu tidak cukup.
pola hidup yang tunggang terbalik!
macam orang yang hidup tanpa arah, ain.

itu tak mengapa,
saya masih ada Dia untuk saya bergantung harap.
tetapi aura negatif saya.... ):
kalaulah aura negatif itu boleh dilihat, agak-agak mati tak orang terkena panahan kuasa negatif tu?
fuhh.. mujurlah tak, tetapi jiwa tetap boleh terasa dengan kehadiran elemen negatif itu.

buat orang-orang di sekeliling saya,
maafkan saya jika saya dingin..
maafkan saya jika suara ini jarang terdengar menegur-sapa..
maakan saya jika  bibir ini kurang tersenyum kepada anda..
maafkan saya jika hari-hari anda tidak ceria disebabkan saya..

sesungguhnya saya takut dengan hari isnin dan seterusnya ini..
jauh dalam sudut hati saya, mahu rasanya berteriak,

" hey ujian tengah semester!saya tak takut pada kamulah! kamu juga ujian blok, jangan angkat hidung kamu tinggi sangat!"

jadi azriatul farahain, siapkan senjata kamu. suit of armour kamu dah ready kan? jangan lupa polish pedang kamu ok? oh, jangan bawa senapang tanpa peluru.. mental kamu? fizikal kamu? jiwa kamu? hati kamu? haa, paling penting, jangan lupa bawa iman tu. jaga elok-elok macam nyawa sendiri.. dont ever lose faith ain.. (:
okey, dah complete ke semua? ohh.. restu mama dan ayah.. lagi? ada lagi?

kalau dah lengkap semuanya, maka kamu sudah bersedia azriatul farahain.. kalau belum, tak mengapa, jangan susah hati.. kita usaha sama-sama ya? ehe~


duhai Pemilik diri, jiwa dan hati saya..
semoga saya semua disambut dengan hari isnin ini dengan baik!
semoga selasa, rabu, khamis dan sabtu tersenyum kepada saya..
ameen.. (:

jadi positif, ain.. (:

.:: strangers in the night ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

i had a dream.. and its really bothering me.. the dream makes me shiver.. n i just woke up eventhough there still a few minutes before my alarm clock ringing.. shock. unexpected. pain.

funny.. cuz there's me, u n her.. but she is someone i know very well.. someone who called friend. yes, i know its just a dream.. damn. i guess my sanctuary is not save anymore.. so where else should i go if i need a place where there is no pain? it makes me scared to sleep again.. cuz there is no hope in there anymore..

its not a nightmare.. but its also not a sweetdream.. so,can i call it,, i dunno.. huh~
but the truth is, it makes me realize, that im just an ordinary girl. life cant be so perfect.

dan saya bukan hidup di dunia pari-pari.

 trapped in my dreams

.:: antinausea ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful and the Most Beneficent

hari ni hari ahad.. hari yg mmg t'sgt la ditggu tiap2 minggu.. hurm, ad tggl lg smgu jek b4 ujian tgh semester aka UTS.. smlm dh kelabu mate ngadap bhp.. hehehe.. cuaca panas hari ny.. x taw la knpa dgn matahari yg agaknye x brape puas hati dgn warga medan smpai memancarkn sinar yg huishh! silau kot.. hahaha..

x tawu lah.. perasaan hari ni sgt indah.. x macam semalam yg tiba2 serabut shgga m'nyebabkn diri t'paksa lari ke alam mimpi.. huhu, dunia yg penuh fantasi.. yg x serabutkn kepala.. yg sgt jauh dr realiti.. walaupn kdg2 mimpi yg hadir tu mengundang resah, gelisah.. tp sekurang-kurangnya kite tawu, mimpi bukan nyata! opps! ain dh jauh merepek.. hahaha.. hari ini.. ain dlm mood yg ok, sambil fkrn b'putar m'cari jalan keluar dlm kekusutan membaca bhp yg x reti2 nk abes..telinga disaji dgn mp3, dlm mod shuffle memutar lagu2 yg sbyk 556 dlm handset sony ericsson w980i kesygn tu, sbg pengubat antinausea m'baca bhp.. ohh, lupa.. bhp-bioethics & humanities programme.. etika kedokteran, rekam medis, hukum kesehatan n bla..bla..bla..dan tiba2, lagu yg dh agk lm x keluar, britney spears- sometimes..

lagu ini.. lagu yang sgt tepat dgn situasi dr skrg.. walaupn lgu ny dh lame, zmn si britney ny bdk2 lagi kot.. tp peduli ap kn? hoho, its just the way i feel..so here it is, another soul lines from me..

SOMETIMES - BRITNEY SPEARS

You tell me you're in love with me
Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But every time you come too close I move away

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

I don't wanna be so shy
Every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that you're the only one for me

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you righ
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

Just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you

Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

 comel..(:

habes..
perlu komen pjg lebar ke?
x pyh kot..
sbb lirik ini dah cukup direct..

.:: Blissful Aidilfitri ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful and the Most Beneficent

alhamdulillah,
raya kali ni dapat kembali ke tanah air tercinta bagi menyambut hari yang sangat dinantikan selama nih..hurm, memang xkan lupa pengalaman raya kt medan last year..adoi,sgt2 menyedihkan..first tyme dlm hidup beraya x sm dgn family..huhuhu,sadis btol..ad cuti seminggu tyme tu, tp beraya dlm bilik je..hahaha~

on 8th september 2010,
naek firefly ke penang dgn andi n lain2..mmg dlm hati dh eksited gle la nk balik mesia..klu bole nk kol pilot tu suh cepat bagi kitorg boarding..hahaha..well,dlm pesawat tuh,haih,puasa kn,,hurm,x dpt mkn n minum jus free..hehe..sepanjang dlm plane,sambil menjenguk ke langit biru dgn gumpalan cotton candy kaler putih, hati dah m'bayangkan wajah2 family tercinta yg sdg menanti di airport sana..then alhamdulillah..mendarat dgn selamat.. tyme tgu bagasi, dh nmpk family tgu kat hujung tu..ain dh start lambai dah..haha!kne sound plak dgn budak2 tuh..haih,dah eksited kn?hihi~ (:

ain n andi

baju raya..
hehe,on the way balek tu, singgah jap kt tepeng.. cari2 baju raya..mama kate, tema kaler maroon la..tapi ayah kate, kuning nak?kaler diraja tu..mn tawu bleh beraya ke istana kn?huhu~ memang jenuh la pusing tepeng tu cari yg sedondon..akhirnya,dpt gak yg mmg sm cm mama..just ina je laen sket cuz xde saiz..nk cari kaler kuning pn trubble, kuning cair? kuning susu? kuning jagung? hehe~

family terchenta..<3

hurm, raya first kat slim..tyme tu juz my family n family makcik je..tp ad la family pak itam dtg..hehe, x kesah lah..yg penting dpt tebus balik ry thn lepas.. raya ke-2 trus balik manjung..family mk yang balik..n seriously, the next raye mmg sgt busy..pegi beraya kt umah org, xpn org yg dtg umah..well, klu x mmg bkn raye la nmnye kn??but, the most important part, pagi2 raye tu,ad sesi bermaafan dgn mama ayh sume..hehe..n then, makanan!my fav lemang n rendang!hehehe..suke sgt2!^^

lemang n rendang!^^

tapi,
lima hari tu x cukup utk saya..
i wish, next raya i will be there with them again..
insyaAllah..(:

miss vast in raya suit..

.:: Not Your Enemy ::.

with the name of Allah the Most merciful and the Most Beneficent

hurm..
something is happening to me..
within me..
ad sesuatu perubahan yg berlaku..
tp sy x suke itu..
semuanya krn kejadian itu..

well,
lets hear a story..

an enemy c0mes t0 visit me,but i t0ld it t0 go.. 'u came t0o early n in wr0ng time. Plis c0me later when i'm ready.' but it say, 'i will never c0me back.' i l0oked at it n i said, 'then i guess,we will remain enemy..'

Hmm,my enemy cant wait any l0nger.it said, 'i cant stay,this is the best way..'.i asked it t0 make sure, 'd0 u really hv t0 go?'.it smile n say, 'im ur enemy,if i stay,we might get int0 a battle..i 0nly cuz u hurt,n i d0nt want t0 hurt u anym0re..' i l0st my w0rd n im helpless..deep,i kn0w wat i really wanted,but its it ch0ice..i dunn0 h0w t0 make it stay..

i think deeply, 'i cant be selfish.'so i look into my enemy's eyes and i say,
'yup,we'd be better off alone.enemies cant declare a truce..'and it walks away.

as i watch it fade,i talk to myself,
'yes,enemy cannot be trusted..unless we declare friends..' 

kawan?me n my enemy?
its so difficult..its the one i've been guarding myself from..

my enemy..
i saw it hiding behind the wall..
i know it's hoping for me to get there..
or,at least for me to shout its name..
i want to..
and people around me ask me to..
n all the emotions scream for me to..
but im just sit there n cover my ears..
i close my eyes n pretend i dont hear anything..
cuz i cant..i just cant..

huhu,dan tibe2 lagu ny yg ak dgr dlm hati ak..
cm ad makhluk ap ntah pasang speaker kt dlm tu..

"Not Your Enemy"

Sorry for all the times that he lied

And left your heart hangin'

I can't imagine what that feels like

But that was another place

And that was another time

It's not fair to blame me for all his crimes

Just for a minute give me a chance

Let me inside just for a minute

Baby just for a moment

Let me prove I'll do things right

Let down your guard

And show me your colours

Don't fight it anymore

Show me you're with me

Open your arms

I'm not like the others

So don't fight it anymore no

What will it take for me to make you see

I'm not your enemy

Funny on the day that he left

I wasn't even there

It's become a nightmare

But I'll never rest till you give your all

I'll take nothing less till I hear happily ever after

The end

Just for a minute give me a chance

Let me inside just for a minute

Baby just for a moment

Let me prove I'll do things right

Let down your guard

And show me your colours

Don't fight it anymore

Show me you're with me

Open your arms

I'm not like the others

So don't fight it anymore no

What will it take for me to make you see

I'm not your enemy

How do you expect things to get any better

If you keep me on the sideline

Don't you know there's a million things I wanna do

But you gotta meet me halfway you gotta try

Let down your guard

And show me your colours

Don't fight it anymore

Show me you're with me

Open your arms

I'm not like the others

So don't fight it anymore no

What will it take for me to make you see

I'm not your enemy 

tp syg..
sy harap dy dgr..
n i do hope dy akn 'nyanyi' utk sy..
but no,dia xkn..sebab dy DEGIL!

oh ya..
forgot to mention..
my enemy is LOVE..