.:: Bless ::.

with the name of Allah Most Merciful Most Compassionate

20.08.2013

It was a beautiful day. Joyful. Full of love and prosperity. They showered me with wishes and prays for my happiness, long-life and bless from my beloved God. I was so lucky for having this life full of those who love me, and care about me.

♡ My dear mom, dad & my siblings who never give up on me and support me from the beginning until now. 
♡ My sweetheart, the one who hold the key to my heart.
♡ My long distance friends. They proved that nothing can keep our special bond  apart through fb, twitter, whatsapp or insta.
♡ My friends around me here. The one who I kept close to my heart and my fellow future doctors who agree to fight side-by-side.
♡ Families & friends.

Dear God,
bless them. cause I am so blessed to have them as mine. Thank you God for this 23 life.♥

.:: I'm In A Persistent Vegetative State ::.

Code blue!!!!!!!!!!!
Code blue!!!!!!!!!!!
*(Code Blue is generally used to indicate a patient requiring immediate resuscitation, most often after suffering a cardiac arrest.)

i think i'm in that situation. yang perlukan tindakan emergency secepat mungkin supaya aku akan tetap bertahan.
my heart dies....
my heart dies....
someone needs to defibrillate my heart now before it will stop pumping.
gelap. kelam. malap.
as if my whole body is sucked into a complete darkness.
who's gonna help?

i'm in a Persistent vegetative state. 

(This is a state of severe unconsciousness. The person is unaware of his or her surroundings and incapable of voluntary movement. With a persistent vegetative state, someone may progress to wakefulness but with no higher brain function. With persistent vegetative state, there is breathing, circulation, and sleep-wake cycles.)

i'm dying i think.those feelings were like a memory to me.it stays in the previous days but i am living in this present day.my mind asked me to stop feeling, stop believing, stop loving. but my damn heart says keep feeling, keep believing, keep loving. 

"this isn't permanent, this is a life lesson." my heart says.

"come on, no one live in fairy tale. no one live in korean dramas. no one live in twilight sagas." reality says.

so i think, i'll just stay in this persistent vegetative state then. a state where i cannot feel, a state where i cannot think wisely, a state where i am unaware of my freaking surroundings. a state where no one can grasp me. and

a state where you cannot save me.

.:: Post-Pre-Graduation ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Compassionate Most Beneficent

speculation.

am I a doctor yet?

yep, melihat kepada photos recently, nampak gaya memang dah graduate.

or aku je kot yang over macam dah grad doctor betul?

kahkahkah.

here,

tiles of my graduation photos.

find it more in my http://www.facebook.com/azriatulfarahain.ahmadzamili.

although, it is never complete without my brother, Ee.

actually graduation tu betul, tak tipu tapi it was a graduation after we finished our lectures.

and after that, we still have to continue our practical and will graduate again 1 and half years soon.

insyaAllah.

wanna proof?

nah.

photo of me during night oncall.

sememeh.

.:: Faint-hearted ::.

with the name of Allah Most Compassionate Most Merciful

human.

typical human.

changed.

changing again..

no one knows you anymore.

you seems like a stranger,

total stranger.

even to yourself.

through time, you are not you anymore.

drown.

drowning in ocean of lies.

this new doctor-to-be life is frightening me. i'm afraid it will change me.

.:: Dokter Muda ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Compassionate Most Beneficent

 

Alhamdulillah.

with all blessings from Allah, He granted me to become a Dokter Muda.

soon. on 11th of March 2013. InsyaAllah.

i'm glad. truly grateful. although i'm missing two of my bestfriend in my co-ass/practical group.

it causes us to mourn for a while.

but Allah knows the best for us.

just wait for the hikmah to show up. (:

my love life also got it. u r truly make me proud of u, darling. <3 p="">

 

so dear Allah,

i wish for every steps that i'll take on treating people, it will be considered an ibadah for You.

strenghten my heart, give me such patience, lend me a little of Your compassion.

for that i will be a good muslim doctor.

with His Empowerment.

"roboDoc"