.:: Not Your Enemy ::.

with the name of Allah the Most merciful and the Most Beneficent

hurm..
something is happening to me..
within me..
ad sesuatu perubahan yg berlaku..
tp sy x suke itu..
semuanya krn kejadian itu..

well,
lets hear a story..

an enemy c0mes t0 visit me,but i t0ld it t0 go.. 'u came t0o early n in wr0ng time. Plis c0me later when i'm ready.' but it say, 'i will never c0me back.' i l0oked at it n i said, 'then i guess,we will remain enemy..'

Hmm,my enemy cant wait any l0nger.it said, 'i cant stay,this is the best way..'.i asked it t0 make sure, 'd0 u really hv t0 go?'.it smile n say, 'im ur enemy,if i stay,we might get int0 a battle..i 0nly cuz u hurt,n i d0nt want t0 hurt u anym0re..' i l0st my w0rd n im helpless..deep,i kn0w wat i really wanted,but its it ch0ice..i dunn0 h0w t0 make it stay..

i think deeply, 'i cant be selfish.'so i look into my enemy's eyes and i say,
'yup,we'd be better off alone.enemies cant declare a truce..'and it walks away.

as i watch it fade,i talk to myself,
'yes,enemy cannot be trusted..unless we declare friends..' 

kawan?me n my enemy?
its so difficult..its the one i've been guarding myself from..

my enemy..
i saw it hiding behind the wall..
i know it's hoping for me to get there..
or,at least for me to shout its name..
i want to..
and people around me ask me to..
n all the emotions scream for me to..
but im just sit there n cover my ears..
i close my eyes n pretend i dont hear anything..
cuz i cant..i just cant..

huhu,dan tibe2 lagu ny yg ak dgr dlm hati ak..
cm ad makhluk ap ntah pasang speaker kt dlm tu..

"Not Your Enemy"

Sorry for all the times that he lied

And left your heart hangin'

I can't imagine what that feels like

But that was another place

And that was another time

It's not fair to blame me for all his crimes

Just for a minute give me a chance

Let me inside just for a minute

Baby just for a moment

Let me prove I'll do things right

Let down your guard

And show me your colours

Don't fight it anymore

Show me you're with me

Open your arms

I'm not like the others

So don't fight it anymore no

What will it take for me to make you see

I'm not your enemy

Funny on the day that he left

I wasn't even there

It's become a nightmare

But I'll never rest till you give your all

I'll take nothing less till I hear happily ever after

The end

Just for a minute give me a chance

Let me inside just for a minute

Baby just for a moment

Let me prove I'll do things right

Let down your guard

And show me your colours

Don't fight it anymore

Show me you're with me

Open your arms

I'm not like the others

So don't fight it anymore no

What will it take for me to make you see

I'm not your enemy

How do you expect things to get any better

If you keep me on the sideline

Don't you know there's a million things I wanna do

But you gotta meet me halfway you gotta try

Let down your guard

And show me your colours

Don't fight it anymore

Show me you're with me

Open your arms

I'm not like the others

So don't fight it anymore no

What will it take for me to make you see

I'm not your enemy 

tp syg..
sy harap dy dgr..
n i do hope dy akn 'nyanyi' utk sy..
but no,dia xkn..sebab dy DEGIL!

oh ya..
forgot to mention..
my enemy is LOVE..

.:: the 20th ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficent

20/08/10
hari ulangtahunku ke-20!
ain dh dua puluh..
huhuhu,cm sedih plak xde angka 1 kt depan tu lagi..
rs cm bkn budak2 dah..
mcm dh x bleh nk maen2..
kne lebih serius nk melakar hidup..

hehe,
there's a funny thing bout dat day..
hurm,tepat kul 12,
ak menunggu teman2 housemate dtg ke bilik utk wish..
at list,for those yg belum tdo..
tp,xde..sorg pn xde..
sy agk t'kilan di situ..
kt fb dh ramai yg pos wish..
nk list mmg sgt lah ramai..
(terima kasih kpd mereka..)
ad gak kwn dr mesia send sms..
cik hikma hashiqin dan cik shazatul shifaa..
di ym bersama cik nurul husna.. (:
and a single call from muhammad aslam..
(wic surprising me so much..)
n en. muhamad hanis yg xde intent pn nk wish,
juz nk ckp psl tutorial je sbb tu dy kol..
(saba je la,dh ak igtkn dlu..hayla tutormate..haha~)
last2 wish bunyi cm kene pakse..haha!

but still,
ak pelik..
ehh,apsal budak2 ny x wish2 ny?
jadi sy mengadu hal ini kpd cik husna..
una kate, "ala,dorg saje je tu..tgk la ap jd nti.."
hehe,dan sy hanya mengeluh..
agak terkilan sebenanye..
i thought i wasn't g0od enuf..
seolah-olah,cm 'ish,ak ny x cukup layak ke nk jd slh sorg kwn yg penting dlm hidup dorg..
dan "dowg x syg ak ke??huwaaaa!"
hahaha,yg tu cm over sket..ehehe..
dan sy pn tidur dgn hati yg agk kacau..

kt usu,
ramai la yg wish..
klaka sbnanye..
n cik andi diane ad ckp pd sy siakn buku log cepat2,nti bole buka pose sm2..
"andi nk booking ain mlm tu!"
hehe..klaka..but i smell something fishy..
well bkn la bau ikan..
tp dowg ny semacam je..
hanis n azza ckp sumthg yg wt ak suspect..
'ape la bdk2 ny nk wt kt ak mlm ny..'
jiha n syaf x wish lg ms tu!
bole bayang x????
adesss...terhiris..(over lagi..)huhu..

dan tibalah malam...
menunggu ketibaan limosin pak joko tak b'kunjung tiba..
hahaha..(:
jadi sy mengambil kesempatan itu dgn menelefon family di mesia..
hahaha,mereka mendoakn kesejahteraan sy..
ayah,mama,ee n ina..
ain sayang kamu semua.. <3

kemudian sy dibawa ntah ke mana..
sukenye la bdk2 ny berteka-teki..
syaf,jiha n diana ikot..
(syaf dh wish,jiha blom lg tu..)
tp syg akk n semi x ikot..
haila...
dan akhirnya tibalah ke satu tempat..
seraton seafood..
huish..bia btol bdk2 nyh..
tiba je kt situ dh kelihatan bdk2 nyh,
idham,ajis,syaril,fazly n pait..
(malu si0t!)
haha,segan gle tibe2 je..
mcm la x penah jmpe bdk2 nyh..
dan ketika kaki melangkah ke dalam,
ad k.long,nauli n jaja..
h0ho,x sangke plak ramai..
ingat kite2 je..
ehehehe..

then,
ain pn menjadi sgt ceria..^^
(mknn sdp gle!)
n hanya org2 t'tentu je taw cane sy ble jmpe mknn..
hehehe~
tgh2 maen2 tu,sembang n ketawa tu,
tbe2 dgr lagu 'happy birthday',
speaker tu..hahaha!
pastu ad la waitress tolak troli yg terdapat kek kt atas tu..
aiseh..salu tgk dlm tv je bnde2 cmny..
aduhai mereka..
kalian buat saya terharu.
n kami pn menikmati kek yg siyes sedap gle..
stroberi kt keliling tu!
n aksi suap menyuap pn jadi..
hehehe..

n kemudian,
sy dihadiahi cik nauli n cik andi..
dan kami pulang dgn hati yg gembira..
(ke ak je?insyaAllah semua..)

setiba di rumah,
akhirnya cik najiha pn wish sy..
huhu,klaka...
dan hati sy faham..
mereka merancang utk susahkn hati sy,tp mereka sediakn sy dgn kejutan yg sy x pernah sangka..
mereka sangat nakal!
utk andi diane,
kmu jdkn besday sy ke-20 ny sgt ideal..
terima kasih semua..(:

and to me,myself and I,today u are a twenties..im grateful to be born as u..the azriatul farahain..20 is an early adulthood..may u owez in a right track..may u grab lots of experiences in lyfe..as an adult,ur action,words,thoughts and attitude should be wiser..we will be together in this.best of luck ain..^^

.:: ramadhan datang lagi ::.

with the name of Allah the Most Merciful and the Most Beneficent

alhamdulillah..
sempat lg aku dipertemukan dgn bulan barakah ramadhan al-mubarak..
harap2 bulan mulia ni,dpt la aku cuba nk perbaiki diri yg serba x kena..
sempat lg nk rebuild balik iman yg dah makin suram..
dpt lg kesempatan nk kuatkan akidah yg rapuh..
still lg ad peluang utk pulihkan semangat utk hidup dlm dunia fana nih..
nk cuci sume kotoran daki hitam dlm hati tu..
nk rawat balik part2 yg luka t'cedera dlm setahun ni..
nk kembali balik pd jalan Dia yg lurus,yg selama ni aku harunginya dgn langkah yg bengkang-bengkok..

colourful ramadhan..

ibadah wajib dan sunat, insyaAllah..

let preserve the holy ramadhan..

happier life..(:

ramadhan,

semoga b'tambah amalan yg dilakukan..

semoga ia makin berkualiti..

semoga ia lebih b'kesan t'hadap diri..

semoga ia valid 100% layak diangkat ke langit tuhan..

ameen.. (:

jom!^^

of course,

wlupn iblis laknatullah dh dibelenggu,

kte still akn deal dgn musuh satu lagi..

NAFSU..

hurm,

mcm2 cabaran bulan pose nih!

sy dah b'sedia!

are you?